Sunday, June 26, 2011
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Sunday, June 19, 2011
cycles
I started counting. I ended up on my knees. You saw it start, you let it be, and so you lost me to this monster, then I lost me to this monster. It's been five years, and here I am still. It's all the same.
Saturday, June 18, 2011
15
Last night was a good night, and this morning was even better, yet I still found myself feeling the same as always in the end. So here's to the past and happier times.
On a brighter note, I found a beautiful place today, and I can't wait to shoot there.
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Cold Summer
My eyes need a rest from this cold summer and I long to dream of blue skies. Instead, every night is a brand new nightmare, leaving me in fear of sleep.
The uneventful days of this summer are unsettling. Even for someone like myself who doesn't really live much, it is usually a bit more upbeat than this. I think maybe I have lost myself completely. I used to be wild and free, I cared for nothing but the now, and I let the fear of consequences settle in when they were actually right in front of me. Now I can't stomach the thought of a single reckless moment, but I can't seem to stomach fear either. I miss the nights that were more than visiting a friend and heading home. I miss when I acted on impulses of adventure that still flow so strongly through me.
The uneventful days of this summer are unsettling. Even for someone like myself who doesn't really live much, it is usually a bit more upbeat than this. I think maybe I have lost myself completely. I used to be wild and free, I cared for nothing but the now, and I let the fear of consequences settle in when they were actually right in front of me. Now I can't stomach the thought of a single reckless moment, but I can't seem to stomach fear either. I miss the nights that were more than visiting a friend and heading home. I miss when I acted on impulses of adventure that still flow so strongly through me.
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